Futuring

Why the fuck we should even give a damn?
That grunge feeling gets me on my guts
and screams through my mouth.

I don't want to write anything
I don't want to kill myself,
I'm just listening to some old stuff
(my god, Grunge's already old).

I'd even like to challenge myself
and do not be lazy of carrying about most of the people
I sometimes pretend to know.

What I really feel
is homesickness,
missing family and old friends,
not that the new ones aren't that good,
they're just perfect, yeah?
Thing is that one cannot replace other
And those who were someday
somehow and somewhere in time
friends or just made me have some great moment in my life,
I'm really missing those times.

Where, again, I could not give a damn,
and living was just the exercise of waking up
and exploring new things a new day could bring,
and not the worrying about future
or about money
or about the best way to have fun next holiday.

It was just waking up and living,
not understanding how could people be stressed
if even the feeling of my hands touching the walls
while I was walking made me feel so good.

I don't regret growing up,
I don't regret be most part of my time
thinking where I wanna be in 2, 5 or 10 years.
I only regret keeping me distant
from the one I was a decade ago,
that as a child would be forever a child
but changed mind so quickly
that many times I find it hard to recognize
that blonde hair naive kid that loved,
above all,
family, friends and cars.